Slavery

Sitting here,
trying to listen to silence,
silence has no sound
but still it keeps me hell bound.

Silence prolongs & my night becomes long,
waiting for the sunshine to shine upon me,
but oh lord, suns a distant tyranny for me.

Slaved by treachery wanting to break free,
i beg for mercy,
but within these walls,
there is no solace.

Walls are my only friends in need,
i talk to them most nights,
just to feel free but freedom is an agony,
only hope can set me free.

I want a view,
to see the night,
just to feel the moon when.
its so bright.

My visions have faded
and so have my memories,
feels just so long to be true
when i did something new.

Darkness makes me mad,
freedom cries & lingers to me,
but only truth prevails,
walls are so empty,
can anyone find me.

My only sin was my covet,
which turned to greed
when i was in need.

My penance is always awake,
i never think of my old mistakes
but still silence makes my tears to break.

I am a slave trapped in purgatory,
nowhere to go only fear to flow,
through my heart & through my soul,
till i become old & i die from cold.

I just feel my breathing,
just feel my heart pounding,
still knowing that human soul is still alive
but no one comes to free me from my misery.

My death is certain i am not ashamed,
only punishment that justifies my deeds,
aghasted by the pasts & confronted by the future.
Still i dream of purgatory but whats better than purgatory
was history.History of violence which has always confronted me.

We each owe a death,
no one's an exception
but some times death is better then slavery.

Searching for you

A sailor waits on the shore of the nile
looking to cross the sea many a mile
waiting for the sea to pass me a smile
but still searching for you in the bottom of the sea.

I want to delve deep down into the sea
only to find you flee
but then even there are obstacles in my way
come what may, i need to find you.

Even the sky above today looks so keen,
its only your charm that has made my
everything to turn green.

Let me find you some place in sea or some
place in heaven.But wherever you shall be
i always want you to be with me.

My search may never end until the lights fade
memories are such of you that wont easily get erased
the burden of life carries me through but only to find you.

Angels appear in my dreams
dark whispers follow me through & then i scream
but only i just want to look at you
for the moments we touched
and the visions we layed,so i dream.

All hopes fade and my search meets its
own fate,but still i think of the moments that
we both embraced.

Still i search for you,the bottom of the sea appears
so shallow but still deep inside me it feels so hollow.
Your beauty is mystified but times will change & times
are strange.I just need to keep patience so one day finding you
may lead me to the path of salvation.

Someday a glorious sun may appear from the west,
then the sea may evaporate,turning the sea into an empty beacon
that guides me nowhere but only towards you,a mermaid in water.

The sea is empty now & i have found you.
Lets embrace each other,once again,
before i close my eyes and again start dreaming only of you.