Why do you sit so far away....

Why do you sit so far away now,
memories shall relive again,
only if you can look at me,
to show me that you care,
just once.

How many times did i tell you that,

i am sorry for the things i have done,

faking was not my only reality,

was naive ,was ignorant,

ever since you been gonne,

my breath feels contempt,

lost for words,torn apart,

i waver with no direction,

nowhere to sway,

here i come to take you,

back to the water's edge,

where we can cast away those doubts,

that still linger & hold.

Those feelings still exist,

turning me inside out,

tell me why,

why do you sit so far away now,

there are words i never said,

a path that was left untread,

no one lies on that way,

only if you stay,

i maybe able to make you feel,

what goes inside my head.

For all the years that we have spent,

i have forgotten the ways to represent,

the troubles that begun,

don't you feel fragile some days,

the nights are miser,

leaving me with only sky to look upon,

and dream of you.

Can't you look upon the east,

where i stay everyday,

just to get your sense of love,

why do you sit so far away now,

across the rivers,

where we first met,

on the boat travelling to eternity.

Can't you feel that boat is sinking,

even i can read what you're thinking,

tell me why,

you don't look here,

for just once,

lets vanish into the mist of love.

You know i will come,

to carry you to the palace of winds,

a place where we again start believing,

a place that never existed for anyone,

except for us,

where we wriggled our sholders,

and flew,

no borders or boundaries stood by,

only if you look here,

i can say that i regret.

So we flew,

as i think of you,

and you look upon me,

from far away yet so near,

but purely true,

you started strolling,

my tears feel flowing,

as i say next what to say to you,

but you smile at me,

and i have nothing to say,

now you beside me,

i can never say,

why do you sit so far away.............

After Hours

I had a vision once,
which falls away,
as an old man i lay,
seems like i just met you,
accenture office calling me,
i can sense but i cant see,
counting down my after hours.

I think of my guilt,
I think of you on this street,
the same breeze that blew,
when i was with you.

The time when i was in shades,
a happening sun came to me
and set me ablaze,
the sun was skeptic,
days became sunny,
nights turned nostalgic.

Seiving your face in the crowd,
the charming moments that engulfed us,
i seem losing control of my senses,
and then your nostalgia sets in.

Moments of those times,
rekindle the ashes of my mind,
as sun shines in yellow,
with me most of the times.

The bells ring soon,
as it makes me afraid,
as i gaze on this empty lake,
where lights are now stranded,
as both of us wait,
the light & i both don't know,
where our fish now invades.

I still long for,
your aura that dazzles,
your beauty that evades,
your talks that enslave.

The word 'your', seems so futile now,
the adjectives seems so hollow,
as on a narrow stretch,
i wait and i try to rhyme,
but i know now,
rhyming memories of you
are now gone.

You bring the,
dash of enigma,
pinch of prowess,
hint of mystery,
and the passion that always
is on a constant stroll.

Our conversations still echo,
time rejuvinates,
as i walk with hope of you,
which i know may turn to dust.

May be ,its just a dream,
that might never come true,
leaving behind a trail of,
only your memories and your aura,
leaving me in the lurch,
the mercy of dwindling hopes,
till the time,
I again sieve your face in the crowd
,loose control over my senses,
and let your Nostalgia set in!

My guilt reiterates,
as most nights a question walks,
just to touch you.

I wanna tell you something,
will miss
the sunny days &
the nostalgic nights
as i disappear,
as this poet may remain
for you just a memory,
but poet has something,
to say that still he cannot,
come whatever may.

Without you i see no shades,
with you i see all shades,
i know its the beauty of you,
the vivid liveliness comes back
again to my life,
as i lay here,
counting down my after hours,
i turn left hoping to see
just again my sunny days,
and then you smile at me
and with it my guilt is gonne.

Forever Young

Can we just dance for a while,
moon looking at you & me,
when we look at the skies,
hoping to stay young forever,
I write this for you in sweet november.

It feels jaaz when we meet eachother,
music grooves with our touch ever,
but baby,if we stay young forever,
we shall become the only light in the sky,
there is now no place where moon could hide.

Can you see the moon turning to water,
night fades with you smiling forever,
our love floating endlessly ever,
now you know what it means when we blend together.

Lets just die or live forever,
without you i can't dream ever,
without you i can't breathe ever,
can't you just stay young forever,
trust me,you will see our emotions linger,
with you vanishing in me forever.

Can you imagine,
somewhere if we ever get lost,
hard to find our happiness perishing forever,
we start to dream, but baby only diamonds live forever.

Wasted sleep & endless nights,
is my theme when you go to dream,
and then i look above where moon is the only
shining light that i could feel.

Dont wanna let you sleep,
dont wanna nights to end,to see you old,
ohh........it feels like heaven when we are together,
so please stay young forever.


Cant stop loving you forever,
sooner or later it will be gone if we dont stay young,
our moments will end,chemistry will vaporize,
back to the moon where it begun.


If you dont stay with me forever,
seems my life stops when our talks get over,
cant imagine your beauty disappear ever,
baby,if we stay young forever.


Do you remember,
summer of memory,summer of grief,
summer of dreams that we could not keep,
so many dreams we had set out of the blue,
when moon looked at me & you.

Out of the blue,my words reach you,
why cant we just dance more for a while,
So baby,if you love me,why can't we stay young forever.

Slavery

Sitting here,
trying to listen to silence,
silence has no sound
but still it keeps me hell bound.

Silence prolongs & my night becomes long,
waiting for the sunshine to shine upon me,
but oh lord, suns a distant tyranny for me.

Slaved by treachery wanting to break free,
i beg for mercy,
but within these walls,
there is no solace.

Walls are my only friends in need,
i talk to them most nights,
just to feel free but freedom is an agony,
only hope can set me free.

I want a view,
to see the night,
just to feel the moon when.
its so bright.

My visions have faded
and so have my memories,
feels just so long to be true
when i did something new.

Darkness makes me mad,
freedom cries & lingers to me,
but only truth prevails,
walls are so empty,
can anyone find me.

My only sin was my covet,
which turned to greed
when i was in need.

My penance is always awake,
i never think of my old mistakes
but still silence makes my tears to break.

I am a slave trapped in purgatory,
nowhere to go only fear to flow,
through my heart & through my soul,
till i become old & i die from cold.

I just feel my breathing,
just feel my heart pounding,
still knowing that human soul is still alive
but no one comes to free me from my misery.

My death is certain i am not ashamed,
only punishment that justifies my deeds,
aghasted by the pasts & confronted by the future.
Still i dream of purgatory but whats better than purgatory
was history.History of violence which has always confronted me.

We each owe a death,
no one's an exception
but some times death is better then slavery.

Searching for you

A sailor waits on the shore of the nile
looking to cross the sea many a mile
waiting for the sea to pass me a smile
but still searching for you in the bottom of the sea.

I want to delve deep down into the sea
only to find you flee
but then even there are obstacles in my way
come what may, i need to find you.

Even the sky above today looks so keen,
its only your charm that has made my
everything to turn green.

Let me find you some place in sea or some
place in heaven.But wherever you shall be
i always want you to be with me.

My search may never end until the lights fade
memories are such of you that wont easily get erased
the burden of life carries me through but only to find you.

Angels appear in my dreams
dark whispers follow me through & then i scream
but only i just want to look at you
for the moments we touched
and the visions we layed,so i dream.

All hopes fade and my search meets its
own fate,but still i think of the moments that
we both embraced.

Still i search for you,the bottom of the sea appears
so shallow but still deep inside me it feels so hollow.
Your beauty is mystified but times will change & times
are strange.I just need to keep patience so one day finding you
may lead me to the path of salvation.

Someday a glorious sun may appear from the west,
then the sea may evaporate,turning the sea into an empty beacon
that guides me nowhere but only towards you,a mermaid in water.

The sea is empty now & i have found you.
Lets embrace each other,once again,
before i close my eyes and again start dreaming only of you.

Death in your arms

I wanna feel dying in your arms,
we dream of hatred & love,
but i dream of you most nights
sitting there looking at me with
a big smile,thats what keeps my
dream alive.

I wanna feel you breathe,
just to stay with you forever
& then just to become your
shadow forever so that i can always
stay beside you.

I wanna feel your touch,
just to touch you and
hold you firmly so that you
know that my thought is always
with you,waiting to be touched by
you so that it can relive again.

I wanna die in your arms,
so that i can find redemption from
my sins and then i can die peacefully
hoping you would take care of me.
but i know you wouldn't come yet.

Wondering in the dark with no hope
i shall die leaving behind only the
cherished memories of my life.
Shadow & thought,are what poets
are made of.Only if you can bless me
with your love,i shall die in your arms.

Your Eyes

Oh God,what eyes??Cant believe if i am alive.
Your eyes are just so wild they make me breathe,
make me feel,make my feelings to linger,but still
can't forget your eyes.

Your mysterious winks are
the only reason i am still alive.Your eyes are so vivid
just like a journey on which every man on this earth
wanna go but still its so fragile.Your gift are those
eyes but why dont you look into my eyes.

The ocean of my heart flows right in front of your eyes.Only if you
can look once you will get to know about the love of my life.
Someone once asked me where's paradise,i told him paradise is
nearer to your eyes,only if you allow me to delve into your precious eyes.

The sadness i feel within your eyes has touched the human soul
& i just breathe to look into your eyes.Oh God please never take
me away from your eyes.I will never let tears flow from your eyes.

Only if i could watch over your eyes,if i would die i shall be reborn
again just to appreciate your eyes & take you with me to the bright
glory of heaven where my heart & your eyes can enter paradise.